First blog post

Good Morning!  Let me introduce myself, I am a wife, mother and nurse in a long term care facility.  I work the night shift so I can be home with my oldest special needs son during the day, and so that I am home when my youngest gets home from school.

Working the night shift, for me is the best!  I have always been a bit of a night owl anyway, and it has saved me a lot of money in child care over the years.  My husband works during the day, so there is essentially always someone home for the kids, pets, etc.

The biggest downfall of working nights for me, is the weight gain.  I suppose whenever you go against nature’s rhythm you run the risk of angering the metabolism Goddess and she punishes you with a slowly creeping rise in poundage.  By the time you realize its happening, it has gotten so far out of control, it becomes overwhelming and you want to give up on trying to stop it, let alone do the work involved in reversing it.

This blog is about just that.  I have gotten to the point that I can no longer ignore how much weight I have gained, or what it has done to my health.  You know how it is, you are tired, slow, uncoordinated.  Your back, legs, knees, hips, everything aches with the slightest bit of exertion.  Yeah, that is where I am.  And I don’t like it, and its time to fix it.

So, today is the beginning of what I hope is a journey toward a more healthy, and hopefully a more pain free me.  As a nurse, I already know the dangers of being overweight and sedentary.  But, the up side is, that as a nurse, I know exactly how to fix it.  I know about nutrition, hydration, exercise and starting slow, so I dont hurt myself.  I know there is no miracle drug, at least not one without dangerous side affects.  I know also that the weight came on slowly over time, and that losing it the same way is the way to get to my goal and keep it off.

I am aware that it will require a lifestyle change, and motivation that i will have to dig deep for most days.  I am hoping that once I begin to see some changes, that the motivation will come easier.  I wish i had a walking buddy, but at this time I really dont know anyone nearby.  Working nights, I have no idea who is in my neighborhood.  My closest neighbor is an elderly woman that barely can make it to her mailbox most days even with a walker, so as much alike as we are on that account, I dont think she is my best motivation at this point in time 🙂

I honestly do not know what i weigh right now.  I dont own a scale.  What i do know is I dont like how i look in the mirror, I dont like how my clothes fit, and I dont like how I feel.  I will not set a goal weight, or set a goal as to a set number of pounds i want to lose.   I find those things to be a road to defeat.  Giving myself such a large number would just be too overwhelming, and there is no sense in doing something that you know you will never accomplish.

I also know that my first goal is not in how far or how fast I walk, not in how many calories i burn, or in how many pounds or inches I lose in the beginning.  But in finding it in myself to push forward every day toward maintaining a schedule and the lifestyle changes that I will need to stay on track with something that is going to be very difficult for me as I am quite lazy and like to procrastinate.

For now my goal is to prove to myself that I can do this.  As a nurse, I know that by simply going outside in the daylight and fresh air to walk a bit each day will create those lovely endorphins we all need to have a more optimistic outlook on life.  And with that comes better motivation and a sense of accomplishment in and of itself.  Between the endorphins, and the melatonin the fog of mild depression lifts and hopefully the whole endeavor will become something I look forward to.

I am sure that once i begin, and over time, my metabolism will pick up, I can push myself a little harder, and begin to see some results of actual weight loss and tone begin to show in how i feel in my clothes, and in lessening my joint pain and increasing my endurance.  At some point, I may look into something that requires more dedication and focus, like going to a gym a few days a week or some sort of exercise program or class. But for now, I think that just getting out and moving a little, being more conscious of what i am eating and when i eat it is the best thing to start with.

So, as I finish this first posting, I am finishing my Atkins shake, heading to the bathroom to put my hair up in a sloppy ponytail, and putting on my dirty old tennis shoes and a bra.  Grab a bottle of water, and go for a nice walk around the neighborhood for the next 30 minutes or so.  Enjoy the sights and sounds of a pleasant sunny spring morning, and breathe in the fresh air.

After that, I should have enough endorphins built up to get a shower and do some housework.  I do work tonight, so at some point i will have to toss in a nap and see how my night goes.  While I am there, I will weigh myself so that I can post tomorrow what my beginning weight is for those that are curious of my starting point.  Not sure how often I will be weighing in though. I guess it will depend on how I feel.

Later All,